2.6 more pounds lost!

Woohoo!! ::happy dance::

It was a such a great feeling to hear that today, especially after a rough couple of weeks. Apparently, some of my healthy habits really did stick, and I must have followed them subconsciously. I really needed this encouraging loss to give me that extra boost to keep going. :)

Beating myself up now.

So, I've had a few rough weeks. We were all sick for several days, then I got mastitis, and I've been on what seems like a never ending round of PMS for weeks. The stress got to me, and I caved.

I just logged in my points for the day on the Points Tracker. I went over my daily points by 18, and I didn't have any weekly points left. I'm 18 in the hole.

I'm so pissed at myself right now, I could just scream. Why is this so hard? Why am I suddenly craving all this food, and why am I unable to stop myself? How did I do so well for 3 weeks, only to turn back on all the good habits I had made? What the heck happened?!

Ugh. I'm so disgusted with myself. I feel so lost with all of this. I don't even know how to start again, and such a big part of me keeps telling me that I don't need to. There's that little voice that's telling me - nay, screaming at me - to get back up and dust myself off. I'm trying so hard to find the courage to believe that I can, and, more importantly, that I want to.

I've made up my mind that, come hell or high water, I'm going to a Weight Watchers meeting tomorrow night. I think that will really reset my frame of mind for weight loss and healthy eating. I'm hoping.

Gah. I can't believe I got sucked back into this place. I just hope I can get out.

Sigh.

Well, I'm on my first day back counting points. Since our entire family got the horrible stomach virus, I've basically been completely ignoring my points and eating pretty horribly. Today has been much better, and I'm hoping I can keep it up from here. I really hate having to pick myself up after a little slump, but I know I can do it.